Swallowed Up

I'm pretty good at running

When I know where I should go

I can turn a clear direction

Into anywhere but home

Bought a ticket going backwards

Called it finding my own way

Funny how I ask for answers

Then get scared of what You say

So I ran until the shoreline

Then I sailed until the storm

I thought distance meant You'd lose me

But You knew where I was going

I thought I was swallowed up

Thought I'd finally gone too far

Three days in the deepest dark

With nowhere left to run

But the thing I thought would end me

Was the thing that brought me back

I thought I was swallowed up

I was swallowed up by grace

I've been sleeping through the thunder

While the whole ship comes apart

There are strangers throwing cargo

I'm still hiding from my heart

And I know this storm is different

'Cause I know the voice I fled

Sometimes rock bottom's just the place

Where running reaches its end

So I sank beneath the surface

Past the reach of my control

And the prayer I should've prayed before

Came rising from below

I thought I was swallowed up

Thought I'd finally gone too far

Three days in the deepest dark

With nowhere left to run

But the thing I thought would end me

Was the thing that brought me back

I thought I was swallowed up

I was swallowed up by grace

Jonah wanted Tarshish

God was calling Nineveh

One road looked like freedom

One looked like giving in

But mercy chased him eastward

Through the wind and waves and deep

Turns out God can send a rescue

That looks nothing like relief

And I've had prayers answered

In ways I wouldn't choose

Sometimes being rescued

Feels a lot like being swallowed whole

I thought I was swallowed up

Thought the dark had finally won

But You were there beneath the waves

Before I even came

And the thing I thought would end me

Was the thing You used to turn me back

I thought I was swallowed up

I was swallowed up by grace

Now I'm standing on the shoreline

With a second chance to start

You can send me where You want me

I'm done running from Your heart

I thought the deep had taken me

I thought I'd disappeared

But even in the belly

You could hear me from down there